For me, the whole identification of myself as “Canadian” has been
a very gradual process. I came here in 1968. When I was a student, I
saw myself as a “student.” I didn’t see myself as part of the Chinese
Canadian community. But once you get involved in working in the
community, eventually there’s a process of moving from identifying
yourself as an immigrant to identifying yourself as a Canadian of
Chinese origin. Having two children here sort of prompted that
process—and the fact that those labels, at a certain point, are
arbitrary.
Lily Welsh
I don’t think my daughter is conscious of being Chinese. When she
was a lot younger, she used to say, “I’m part Chinese and part white.”
I mean, I taught her that she’s part Chinese and part white. So she
would go to school and she’d tell other people. The other day she
came home and told me she was walking home with a Chinese girl.
Our daughter told this other girl that she was part Chinese and part
white. The other girl, who is completely Chinese, told my daughter
that she herself is also part Chinese and part white. . . .
I usually use the word, “Chinese Canadian.” When I say
“Canadian,” I guess I think only about the white people—although
I am actually a Canadian myself. I also use the term “Chinese,”
because, after all, I am a Chinese person. But because I grew up in
Canada, I most often call myself a “Chinese Canadian.” I don’t really
think about Chinese culture much because my parents didn’t follow
the customs that thoroughly. . . .
I don’t think I’m a typical Chinese Canadian woman. I feel like I’m
in between. To me, a typical Chinese Canadian woman is one who is
so westernized that she follows everything the white person’s way.
And I don’t feel that I’m like that because I know a lot of Chinese
customs and I do mingle with a lot of Chinese people. . . .
I have not always felt proud to be Chinese. Sometimes I too have
wished I was white, so I could be in the majority instead of being in
the minority. I suppose I feel that way when I get depressed. I don’t
384 A Voice of New Canadians
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