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established at Kingswood, near Bristol, and she was, he
claimed, willing to agree with this. He insisted that she was
crucified to the world, desiring nothing but God, dead to the
desire of the flesh, to the desire of the eye, and the pride of
life.
In his efforts to defend the proposed marriage on religious
grounds, Wesley fell back (despite his protestations to the
contrary) on the hyperbole which came easily to him:
And as to the fruits of her labours, I never yet heard or read of any
woman so owned of God: so many have been convinced of sin by her
private conversation; and so many have received remission of sins in
her bands or classes or under her prayers. I particularly insist upon
this. If ever I have a wife, she ought to be the most useful woman in
the kingdom: not barely one, who probably may be so (I could not be
content to run such a hazard) but one that undeniably is so. Now, shew
me the woman in England, Wales or Ireland, who has already done so
much good as G. M.. I will say more. Shew me one in all the English
annals, whom God has employed in so high a degree? I might say in
all the History of the Church, from the death of our Lord to this day.
This is no hyperbole, but plain, demonstrable fact. And if it be, who
is so proper to be my wife?
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This, for all the exaggeration, had its pathos, betraying the
desperation of a man arguing against the majority, and tr y-
ing at the same time to kee p his desires within the frame of
his religious assumptions. If he also talked in such terms –
though there is no way of knowing how far he did – he was
saying things which his sharpest critics would use to accuse
him of putting Grace Murray before God. He himself quoted
Jane Keith especially, a Scotswoman who hovered between
Wesleyanism and Presbyterianism, finally settling for the
latter. She had said: ‘1. That Mr W. was in love with G. M.
beyond all sense and reason; 2. That he had shown this in the
most public manner, and had avowed it to all the Society, and