122 Wesley and the Wesleyans
finally made to them. We do, however, have a more elaborate
account of the impact of early Wesleyanism, and of the en-
vironment in which it flourished, on one particular woman.
It comes, not quite directly, from Grace Murray, a woman
with whom John Wesley was closely associated in the later
1740s, and whom he might have married, though this would
have required his overcoming the manipulative interference
of Charles. Her account of her religious experiences up to 1749
was recorded by John Wesley at the climax of their relation-
ship, when she was thirty-three and he was about forty-six,
and the text bears traces of editing by him. Wesley kept the
account, which has survived, and no one has ever disputed the
basic authority of the available text, as coming from Grace
Murray herself as well as from him.
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The document gives
an excellent picture of the primary religious world which the
Wesleys had penetrated, and the results of the encounter.
Grace Murray was born to Anglican parents in Newcastle
upon Tyne in 1716. She left the city when she was eighteen in
order to evade her father’s wish that she marry, and joined her
sister in London, where she was in service for a time. In 1736
she married a seaman, Alexander Murray; when he returned
to sea she went back to Newcastle, pregnant, but suffered a
miscarriage. She was in London again, and by now a mother,
by 1739, when her husband hindered her from hearing George
Whitefield. Within weeks Murray went back to sea, and two
weeks later her child died. ‘As I looked at her laid out upon
the table, the thoughts of death seized strongly upon me. This
was followed by a strange lowness of spirits, without any
intermission.’
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A young woman asked her to go and hear Whitefield on
Blackheath, and with her husband away she did so. ‘When
[Whitefield] was gone away ...I was utterly disconsolate
again. I wept much in secret, I walked up and down but could