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With my parents in Munich
City until mid-December. I caught myself talking about Barbara,
wanting her. I called her from New York and made plans to meet
her as soon as I got back to California.
All the way back on the plane I had these mixed emotions—
what was wrong with me? Why did I continue to talk of this girl?
All I knew was that with her I had allowed something to happen
that I had guarded against for years. There was something else
there besides a diversion, a release. I actually wanted to be with
her.
It was an unusual experience for me. I began to explore my
feelings, to see why this was happening. I would pull away and
watch myself. I had taught myself always to pull back and look at
whatever I was doing and make a judgment about it. I always
tried to be honest. It baffled me now to see that I was enjoying
something more than a physical relationship with someone. I
liked it. And I was happy. I had found someone who loved me,
who really cared for me.
Two years later, when she had finished school and could come
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to Santa Monica permanently, we decided to move in together. It
was her suggestion, but I was instantly agreeable. Again I saw
new changes in myself. I was enjoying the experience of putting
together an apartment—a place for living, not just some pad
where I could sleep, hang out.
Gradually a conflict grew up in our relationship. Basically it
came down to this: she was a well-balanced woman who wanted
an ordinary, solid life, and I was not a well-balanced man and
hated the very idea of ordinary life. She had thought I would
settle down, that I would reach the top in my field and level off.
But that's a concept that has no place in my thinking. For me, life
is continuously being hungry. The meaning of life is not simply
to exist, to survive, but to move ahead, to go up, to achieve, to
conquer. When she saw me moving away from bodybuilding into
another challenging field, acting, I think she realized we could
not go on together. When I went to Alabama to begin the filming
of Stay Hungry, she moved to her own apartment.
That was a tough time for me. I was torn between two things. I
felt that a part of me had been ripped right out of my body. I had
lost something good, something that had helped hold me to-
gether. Barbara had taught me how to appreciate a woman. Emo-
tionally, I wanted to stay with her. Intellectually, I knew it
would never work. I wanted to grow, to go on; the life she
wanted wouldn't permit that. I had learned how a relationship
can be beautiful, how it can add to the meaning of your life and
feed your soul.
I've retired from bodybuilding but I haven't quit. I have only
stopped competing. I would describe myself as sort of the leader
of the bodybuilders. Many times I feel like I'm their mother.
They come to me with all their problems. They write me about
their problems. Every year before competitions they ask me
where they should compete and at what body weight, what pos-
ing trunks to wear, what oil to use, and how to pose. They want
advice about contract negotiations and the stories they want to
write for muscle magazines.
I become very emotionally attached to them every summer,
during the time of training, when I work out with them. Whoever
you are training with, the two of you become like one unit—it's
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like being married for three months—and you do almost every-
thing together: you go out to eat together, you train together, you
lie in the sun together, you spend free time together talking,
trying to inspire each other. You become attached to each other.
I'm always the leader, because I'm the more outgoing person-
ality, I'm a domineering person. And I'm also the most experi-
enced bodybuilder, the one who has had the most success. I've
traveled all over the world, I've done hundreds and hundreds of
exhibitions. I've only lost three competitions—and each time it
was second place. So they look up to me.
For many of them I'm the hero, and that's why I've become a
caretaker. Especially now that I am out of competition and into
promoting competitions. It's a whole different ballgame, because
I think bodybuilders see me as a person who loves bodybuilding
and is really trying to help it as a sport. I am trying to do this by
running the top shows, the Mr. Olympia and Mr. Universe com-
petitions. I want to bring more money into bodybuilding and see
that the competitors get a greater share of it.
Whatever else I do, I want to always be a kind of ambassador,
a preacher for bodybuilding.
With Ed Corney
Mr. Olympia, 1971; with Joe Weider
Training with Father
Mr. Olympia, 1973; with Joe Weider
Mr. Olympia, after beating
Lou Ferrigno; 1974
Practicing posing
Fooling around during the filming of Pumping Iron
Courtes v of United Artists
Learning to play the violin during shooting of Stay Hungry
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Working out in top form,
1973