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go over there, I'm going to compete," I told him, "not to watch."
He laughed and said, "Sure."
Munich was ideal for me. It was exciting, one of the fastest
cities in middle Europe. Everything there seemed to be happen-
ing at once. It was big, with this feeling of wealth and power and
barely contained energy; it seemed on the point of exploding.
Even before I was settled and secure, I could see a future for
myself. I could grow and expand. For the first time, I felt I could
really breathe.
But the day I arrived from Austria, I was overwhelmed. Inside
the train station I encountered a flood of foreign languages—
Italian, French, Greek, German, Spanish, English, Dutch, Portu-
guese. There was no one to meet me: I had only an address to
find. Each time I turned to someone to ask directions, I was met
with a shrug and a statement that either they didn't speak Ger-
man or they were strangers themselves. I carried my bags out of
the station. Again, I couldn't believe it. I had never seen so many
people. There were crowds and crowds of people and they all
seemed to be hurrying somewhere. Endless lines of cars honked
and sped past. Buildings rose up close and tall.
I remember turning around slowly, looking at it all and saying
to myself, "There's no way back now, Arnold."
Of course, I knew I would never want to go back. I was meant
to be there, and to go on. The plan I'd begun formulating three
years ago was beginning to work.
I went to Munich fresh, naive, and pretty innocent. I was a big
Austrian kid from a small country village and I was impressed
with everything about this teeming city. I couldn't get enough of
it. Schneck, my new employer, drove me around in his
Mercedes. He showed me all the things he owned, including his
beautiful house, where he had promised I could have a room.
I stayed with him for three or four days. I did have a separate
room, but there was no bed in it. I slept on a couch, which was un-
comfortable for someone my size. Schneck promised he would get
a bed: he said one had been ordered. It never arrived, of course,
and he finally suggested that I should sleep in his bedroom.
I got the message. It went up my spine like a sudden chill. I
packed my clothes and left the house.